Saturday, May 21st, Rapture Day

It’s 4:18am and I’m still here, so maybe the Rapture is happening some time this afternoon..heh. I’m up as sleep is something that eludes me more often than not lately. I did have a good day yesterday. My actual only real phobia is “The Dentist”. I had a few bad experiences at the dentist as a child and even 30-40 years later they still haunt me. Since my chemo treatment is coming up in a few days I decided I better at least get a cleaning and one or two little cavities taken care of so they wouldn’t crop up into something else while on my chemo treatment. All the books said to get my teeth taken care of now and I finally just jumped in the deep end. Someone is watching over me and directed me to the kindest, most efficient dentist in Evanston.

I went in hoping for a little temporary work to hold me over for the next 4 months while doing my treatments and once I explained to her that this visit was pretty much my only chance before they started she went strait to work. She took a look, saw what needed to be done and asked if anything one thing was most important. I started to explain and she said “Nevermind..we don’t have time to talk…let’s get to work” and away we went. The process was a blur, but I remember she kept gently plying my tightly closed fists open and telling me to relax and before I knew it she had given me a whole new smile. She said she had a few little more things to do, like remove any silver from old fillings and change everything to white and make sure everything was perfect and since chemo was Thursday, could I come back Tuesday. I said of course. They checked their appointments and there were none. She moved someone immediately and I’m going back at Noon on Tuesday.

She wiped a tear from my cheek and asked if she was hurting me…I told her not one little bit, that she had given me something so special that I just couldn’t keep it in. The little things DO matter. I’m bringing her flowers on Tuesday!

We are having a little get together this afternoon, for all us left behind on Rapture Day and kind of a last weekend before treatment social then it’s full steam ahead. It’s my son Christopher’s birthday today. He just graduated with a Bachelor’s in Mechanical Engineering and is headed to Officer Training School for the Air Force in a week or so. I couldn’t be more proud of him. “Happy Birthday Chris!”

Both of my boys Johnathan and Christopher have shaved their heads to show their support for me…silly but so very sweet. So I’ll have to have my picture taken with them while we are all bald soon (Now that’ll be a fun picture).

My schedule for the week is.. Monday – wig fitting. Tuesday – PET Scan and having a port put in and return to dentist. Wednesday – Possible makeover at Macy’s. Thursday – First Chemo treatment. Friday – Hopefully chilling at home with no side effects watching movies on TV all day. I’m a little nervous about the PET Scan as I don’t know how much this stuff has spread and waiting for that news is a tad frightening, but information is power and you can’t fight what you can’t see. If I didn’t say before, I’ve given up soda and now have a new outlook on my health all together. I understand exercise is actually good for the tiredness from chemo so look out world…here I come. Look for me on Sport’s Magazine in the next Marathon…hehe.

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